Been too long

Its been over a year since I've last post. As I sit here sipping on my whiskey on the rocks in content. After all the hardship, challenges, heart ache, etc ..I finally feel things coming into place as they finally should be. Who knows how log this will last ...but it feel so good ...finally. I will cherish this for as long as I have it.
 Deleting the bad. Bring on the change. I am not afraid of you (maybe a little..okay i am afraid) but i am still willing to except any challenge. I will always love and appreciate my past...my broken, sad and happy past....for you will always be apart of me in every way. Thanks for being so fucked up to me and for making me cry because if it wasn't for you I would have never of stepped up my game and challenged my own being. I'll probably be over this in a few days ..but for now ..I'm going to just go with it ...SO FUCK YOU and i love you all at the same time.

Helping is worth it....

Starting last Friday was an uplifting moment when I arrived at the prom benefit in Culver City...one of the best descisions I've ever made. Wonderful meeting so many awesome people, all the teens were so sweet so awesome.I hope I see them all again soon ..and specially next year....stay strong guys...I better see you there!

Today was the last shoot for portfolio was today ...I'm definitely going to have some shoots on my own for my hair and make up portfolio...I just need to find a beautiful model. Next week I start character...Its goin to get insane....I'm loving it.

One step at a time...lets finish this week first ..

Much better day

Had a good day for the shoot in class today ....starting to feel more at ease with everything..Getting our first models on friday...I hope she's not a hot mess ..kinda nervous ...great.

I'm still craving a tasty beer though much needed after long days of creativity

A few more days..

Untill hair class is over ..then off to portfolio!

Its been rough but productive so totally worth it ...

Tom I have my final ...Im doing Ancient Greece...Recreating the look from those days ...super excited ...I'm going to make Marisa the goddess of love ...shes going to look AMAZING (slightly nervous)

Keep you posted on how it goes...wish me luck

sometimes..

Pressure ..fustration then shouting n yelling filling your body up with so much anger you have this ball of energy inside you ..that needs ta burst out before you explode..then BOOM!  a hole in your wall ...not realizing what you did ..you begin to cry ...n all the anger you felt wasnt anger at all ..it was saddness

=(

More footage...

Who would have thought this would take this long? I had no idea I did this much video when I was in high school...

thank god though ..because if I didnt do it ..then no one would have *shrugs shoulders* oh well =)

productive but tired

Got a lot done today..cleaned my house ..my car..org my room ...got creative with old clothes i dont wear no more and practiced knitting (im trying to learn)

Oh and went to court and got my money back! yay!

just now my body hurts ..stiff neck still...cant move ...body aches (including my face)...*sigh*

hopefully i can get sum rest right now..ta ta yall