Sun flower seeds

mmm..

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WORRIED

Of my friend Kenny ....=(

Have not been able to relax or do anything !




Hurry up weekend and be over with already

EWW!

A few weeks ago ..totally forgot ta post this ..but here it is now..tehe

yucky!oh man that thang was huge!

Need ta fill the hole

Got a few more things I need ta try out...



Then hopefully I'll feel more satisfied.

slowly but surely

Im starting ta get good feelings again....I hope this is not a tease.
Guess sometimes you gotta feel sadness and anger before really enjoying and appreciating happiness


Still a bit sad about all my info that was on my phone that got deleted ..or I hope just lost (and sumhow comes back to me!) My notes and calender dates were the most important to me ..my journal ..my stories..my ideas =(

Ieya so depressing when I think about it ..

Cheer up Kasie Kat

Last night

One crazy ass adventure.... =)

whiskey
lots of picture
spin the bottle
drunk friends
wine being thrown on my friends lap
being yelled at
heavy make out sessions
getting lost
burger king
parking ticket

and..

the sun rise

Reunion

Last night was amazing...fun fun fun ...played some pool ..(won) ;p
Had a shit load of drinks (drunk)
and laughed my ass off all night long...

Thanks friends..I have been needing a night like that ...



p.s
I came ta the conclusion that some people I thought wur genuine decent people are complete liers..totally hypocritical..I thought i knew them but instead they deceived me ...

Amazing...Im actually impressed that these people can live with themselves ....specially if they dont even realize what they are doing or worse ...not giving a shit


Just had ta clear my thoughts real quick ...carry on =)

Cycle of change

Once again ...a transition of  my life has begun ...a new path has started ..

After last night which was completely strange for me..opened my eyes immensely...

Today I was driving with the cool breeze blowing in my face while listening to mellow tunes ..thinking about everything, I came to the conclusion (which I have been trying to decipher about for a few days now) that the reason why I was freed from what I was tied down to before was because I have something way  bigger and better waiting for me .

Why be sad about things not working out if it wasn't meant for you ..If it does not fit then find something/someone that does.

I'm feeling way better about everything as of right now...(who knows how I will feel in a few days)

Already on a good start it feels...getting my head shots takin by a dear friend tom and after my first assignment shoot! Super excited and super nervous at the same time....I feel a lilttle bit of sadness every now and then.. but I think mostly over all I'm going to be alight ...actually even better!

Lets get to it life! Im ready to go full out!

It seems

When I need someone the most ...no one is ever around...what kind of b.s is that?

Lame

WOOPEEE

Going to a wedding tonight. Going to celebrate a couple's love for one another. YAY! (being totally sarcastic)

So not looking forward to it ....(as of just being thrown to the curb last weekend)
Any who ....I'll try my best to enjoy it ..maybe I can think of it as ..someones gotta have the happy ending..or should i say a happy start


I do have ta say ..it might sting a lil but I actually get really touched when I see a beautiful relationship...kinda makes me feel like Im in one as well or reminds me of my beautiful times.

P.ssssss
My phones still acting gay .....I hope it gets fixed soon ...cant stand not having no ones number ( well i have some but people I would rather not talk ta)

A new level of thought..

Leaving Taiwan tonight.....here we go


Lots of ideas...huge list ta do .....lets start checking them off
<3

Something to ponder

How do you kno if someone is right for you..?

The answer is you dont know. That is why you have to explore and take that risk.

But what is for sure .....is that the right person for you is someone who loves you the way you are...the person you dont have change at all or want to change.

Wurr the person dosnt feel responsible for you and can trust that you are goin to be what you claim you are, what you project you are, and vise versa.







Another thing people dont seem ta grasp...
In a relationship with ..lets say your dog, you can have a bad moment. For whatever reason, it happens to be n accident, bad day at work, or whatever. You come home, and the dog is there barking at you, tail waggin, lookin for your attention. You dont feel like playing with the dog, but the dog is there. The dog will not feel hurt that u dont wanna play. Once the dog celebrates ur arrival and finds that u dont wanna play, the dog goes play by itself. The dog dosnt stay there to insist you to be happy.

Sometimes You can feel more support from ur dog then from a partner who wants ta make u happy. If you dont feel like being happy, and u only want to be quiet, its nothing personal. It has nothing to do with ur partner. Perhaps you have a problem and u need ta be quiet. But silence can cause ur partner to make a lot of assumptions: "what did i do now? iTS BECAUSE OF ME." It has nothing to do with your partner;its nothing personal. Left alone, the tension will go away, and you will return to happiness.

P.s

You shouldnt ever take people for granted ....

because sooner or later ..its going to come back and bite you in the ass!

Taiwan

Arrived in Taiwan Taipei early this morning around 4 or 5 am . Got ta lounge on the second floor of the plane and have a whole row to myself (so i finally got sum sleep) A lot is goin through my mind right now ....left the U.S on a really weird time...

I hope when i come home things get better
or i hope at least not as bad as it seems....
Have had no time to process what happened

Do you ever know ...

Do you ever know if what you are doing ..is the right thing to do ?
Do you ever know when to stop yourself from going too far?

We never know...I guess you just got to take the chance
No right and wrong because whatever happens..it will lead you to where you are supposed to be
Right now.


Take the risk ...I try ...even though I might come off as a fool ..at least I tried....did you?

Hands.

My hands hurt so much ....and I'm covering a S#*! load of shifts this week ...=(


I just wanna make some art and do the things I have been planning on doing..cant afford to waste anymore time.
Now that I'm home from a long days work ...thought I would have had tom off ...(not anymore) I really wanted to see my friends and now I'm debating if I should even try and go out .....



If i don't ...I'm just going to sit here untill my eyes burn out driving myself crazy ...thinking ..over thinking ...AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

too much ....I'm getting bummed=/

SAVE ME!

Take it down a notch

So lately I've been on a super happy high ....but waking up this morning I felt different.

It's like I don't feel comfortable being this happy so drastically ( like its too good to be true or even I'm going to jinx it somehow or disappoint myself in the end) ...I should definitely take it down a notch ...coming back to the real world in a sense












but then again i cant help but feel what i feel and to enjoy it untill it ends.
Carpe Diem.

Ok.

Feeling good today
(feels like I had no sleep ..wait did I?)
=p


Anywho ....totally worth it ...I can sleep once I'm off work at 9.


Yeeeah Doubt it.



Well ...I'll catch up on sleep eventually

Here we go again..

I'm offically sick again....


but I'm not going to let it stop me from doing what I got to do ...F* U sickness!!

I feel inspired today to make some art.....and i wanna go dancing =)
LETS DO DIS!

What ta do

Its sad how this is supposed to be a personal blog and yet i feel super restricted on speaking my mind because its not "professional".......

this is b.s man..


what would you do...?

also...i have a chance to move to Taiwan!
To live! For however long!
Its an amazing opportunity
but i also have one other amazing opportunity here...
decisions decisions

so much to do ..so much to think about ...

Lately Ive been so busy and thinking constantly about things that I need to do that people would be staring straight at me talking and I would have no idea what they were saying or even if they were speaking to me! haha so crazy I feel so scatter brained cant focus on anything for too long ...

I think i just need to relax for a day or two...i don't know why i always over work myself feeling like i need to be constantly moving ...the need to be working on something constantly ...thinking about everything constantly ....geezz exhausting... no wonder I keep getting sick ...its the only way for me to relax ..my body has to shut down in order for me to stop ...take a break 

Im so tired...I think I'm going to take a nap ...again...

Off 4 the rest of the week

MazingaZ in Korea Town ....had a few cups of beer ...ready ta go ridin on theee el biko
(bike duh)


lots ta do the rest of the week ...
ahhhhh nervous!!!!!!!!!!!



=)

LA BOR DAY

Soooo yesterday/last night was a strange one....wasn't feeling it so much (was ready ta end it by midnight) This weird feeling was following me ...I didn't feel anything in particular ..i wasn't sad or mad but I wasn't super happy either...I think it bothered me more that i didnt know

but early this morning i woke up laughing ...
I forgot what I was laughing about but I feel like something strange is gunna happen today


Just got to my Moms..waiting for my cousins to arrive so we can feast
then off ta work I go



What in the world will happen today ....

A day of rest

For the body and mind...


researching.....
thinking....

Down In the Town

Just got home from an after hours show in down town...


so wonderful to see everyone =)
(((been working n recovering from being sick all week )))
tom ill be back ...TIME TA PARTY...


hopefully i last

sleep now
NITE!

Cant seem to close my eyes

but yet still find myself dreaming...








p.s
He was just chillin all day by my front door ...9 am ta 5 pm

Worked all day and still goin..

these damn fires are killin my lungs! ..


but even so ...i cant stop movin....so much ta do!!!
still improving my website and working part time @ Diesel




it feels good to be busy ...i just hope i get better soon n not have ta worry about my health (me sicky)


to be continued....

Indescribable Days

Feels like a beginning of something ...a change...

refreshing and scary all at once

Had a crazy experience myself on saturday ...never thought i would end up in the hospital ..apparently i was that sick ( i was shitting bricks!) My body was shaking ..i felt like fainting ...it was a feeling i dont think i've ever felt before


But anywho ..lets see what the present offers and what the future has lined up