Last night

One crazy ass adventure.... =)

whiskey
lots of picture
spin the bottle
drunk friends
wine being thrown on my friends lap
being yelled at
heavy make out sessions
getting lost
burger king
parking ticket

and..

the sun rise

Reunion

Last night was amazing...fun fun fun ...played some pool ..(won) ;p
Had a shit load of drinks (drunk)
and laughed my ass off all night long...

Thanks friends..I have been needing a night like that ...



p.s
I came ta the conclusion that some people I thought wur genuine decent people are complete liers..totally hypocritical..I thought i knew them but instead they deceived me ...

Amazing...Im actually impressed that these people can live with themselves ....specially if they dont even realize what they are doing or worse ...not giving a shit


Just had ta clear my thoughts real quick ...carry on =)

Cycle of change

Once again ...a transition of  my life has begun ...a new path has started ..

After last night which was completely strange for me..opened my eyes immensely...

Today I was driving with the cool breeze blowing in my face while listening to mellow tunes ..thinking about everything, I came to the conclusion (which I have been trying to decipher about for a few days now) that the reason why I was freed from what I was tied down to before was because I have something way  bigger and better waiting for me .

Why be sad about things not working out if it wasn't meant for you ..If it does not fit then find something/someone that does.

I'm feeling way better about everything as of right now...(who knows how I will feel in a few days)

Already on a good start it feels...getting my head shots takin by a dear friend tom and after my first assignment shoot! Super excited and super nervous at the same time....I feel a lilttle bit of sadness every now and then.. but I think mostly over all I'm going to be alight ...actually even better!

Lets get to it life! Im ready to go full out!

It seems

When I need someone the most ...no one is ever around...what kind of b.s is that?

Lame

WOOPEEE

Going to a wedding tonight. Going to celebrate a couple's love for one another. YAY! (being totally sarcastic)

So not looking forward to it ....(as of just being thrown to the curb last weekend)
Any who ....I'll try my best to enjoy it ..maybe I can think of it as ..someones gotta have the happy ending..or should i say a happy start


I do have ta say ..it might sting a lil but I actually get really touched when I see a beautiful relationship...kinda makes me feel like Im in one as well or reminds me of my beautiful times.

P.ssssss
My phones still acting gay .....I hope it gets fixed soon ...cant stand not having no ones number ( well i have some but people I would rather not talk ta)

A new level of thought..

Leaving Taiwan tonight.....here we go


Lots of ideas...huge list ta do .....lets start checking them off
<3

Something to ponder

How do you kno if someone is right for you..?

The answer is you dont know. That is why you have to explore and take that risk.

But what is for sure .....is that the right person for you is someone who loves you the way you are...the person you dont have change at all or want to change.

Wurr the person dosnt feel responsible for you and can trust that you are goin to be what you claim you are, what you project you are, and vise versa.







Another thing people dont seem ta grasp...
In a relationship with ..lets say your dog, you can have a bad moment. For whatever reason, it happens to be n accident, bad day at work, or whatever. You come home, and the dog is there barking at you, tail waggin, lookin for your attention. You dont feel like playing with the dog, but the dog is there. The dog will not feel hurt that u dont wanna play. Once the dog celebrates ur arrival and finds that u dont wanna play, the dog goes play by itself. The dog dosnt stay there to insist you to be happy.

Sometimes You can feel more support from ur dog then from a partner who wants ta make u happy. If you dont feel like being happy, and u only want to be quiet, its nothing personal. It has nothing to do with ur partner. Perhaps you have a problem and u need ta be quiet. But silence can cause ur partner to make a lot of assumptions: "what did i do now? iTS BECAUSE OF ME." It has nothing to do with your partner;its nothing personal. Left alone, the tension will go away, and you will return to happiness.

P.s

You shouldnt ever take people for granted ....

because sooner or later ..its going to come back and bite you in the ass!

Taiwan

Arrived in Taiwan Taipei early this morning around 4 or 5 am . Got ta lounge on the second floor of the plane and have a whole row to myself (so i finally got sum sleep) A lot is goin through my mind right now ....left the U.S on a really weird time...

I hope when i come home things get better
or i hope at least not as bad as it seems....
Have had no time to process what happened